A bit of an update

hi
Sorry i havent posted in a while, i will give u a quick update of everything that has happened since i poseted last. Umm… lost my virginity on the 26th march. It was fairly good and the highlight of my year so far. Been doing it loads since. Aint crossdressed for a while now. I suppose i am scared of being found by my mum even though she says she doesnt mind me doing it. Aint told my girl yet. I have hinted it in loads n loads of ways but she aint getting it. I am trying to guage her reaction to crossdressing so i will know how she will react when i tell her. Been very depressed lately and my mum is finding it hard to understand why. To be fair, so am i. I dont know why i feel so low sometimes. Moodswings i suppose. I had another chat with my psychotherapist. She wants me to go on anti-depressants but my mum is dead against it. I am going back for a check up in a few weeks and if my situation hasnt improved then i am going on them. I hate pills and medication so i aint really happy about it but i havent been happy in so long so i dont suppose i will mind much. Been to the theater twice with my mates and most of them wouldnt understand a crossdresser so i have ruled out telling them. Oh well.. not much else happening. Just saddness, sometimesi just sit in my room and cry. I hope things can improve. i mean, i want to dress up now but my mum is in and i would get very embarrised infront of her. i will try and post a bit more often and there will be a few more photos on their way.

- hugs
~Alice~